hurt

once again in brokeness i approach your throne
to find peace and mercy that flows
washing away the shame and pain
these pieces i carry to you
knowing that somehow you know whats best

no matter how i feel, no matter what happens
here i wait, yes Lord i wait for you
in brokeness, in tears sometimes in hot anger
somehow you still love me, through christ
you make the valleys rise

in this hard season of time
the dry times and painful nights
i know you have my future in sight
yes you care yes you love me
even when i dont feel like its so

chaffed and bent over
with this time to wait upon you
Lord i dont know what to do
but to stay here, to stay by you

seashore

footprints in the softsand
a long way to become a man
many more steps, many more memories
farther than the eye can see

the sets i see always vary
so many people next to me
these days i grow so weary
but i know one set thats there consistently
Yours that made a mark
upon this often broken heart

the seashells and animals that adorn
little decorations that You paint upo
often spoiled by clutter and pride
yet somehow, its for us You died
when it all ends this i know
it will be a wonderful sight

Lord my heart longs for You
i just dont know how much longer i can carry on
this wait has taken its toll
i thought i surrendered it all
but some burdens remain

Lord i cant see so very far
i dont know why i'm going down this path
the broken road that never seems to end
the character traits that You and i want
doesnt seem to come about

im left with a broken heart
that's taking so long to heal
Lord is there a reason i'm in this alone?
or perhaps i should change my view

Lord i know you walk with me
have mercy and let your grace fall
i cant take it anymore

i will always remember
the times we had together
the times we got it so wrong
and the ties it felt so right

i know its ended but somehow
i know the story hasnt come to a close
who knows how it will end
i hope in fairytale stories
and maybe this will be one too.

the gifts lie astrewn in heart and in the room
i somehow hope against all hope, that we'll be reunited soon
the odds are against us, feelings that were burning
are'nt there anymore
so i wait and hope for the best

i'll be ok when you choose someone else
i'll be happy for you
or i'll try to be hoping the smile
is as real as can be

Blue Rose

the blue rose that likes red
one that captured my eyes
yet still so far away
wishes and mysteries
that refused to be let solved.

is it ever possible to hold you
yet they say you let those who hope
attain the impossible
this distance that separates
my heart from your door
the gentle knocks,
waiting somehow, it my be opened.

blue rose, how very special
the many faceted mystery
that i've walked into
blue rose how far can we go?

Sorry

just wondering how it all should be
the end that never would be
or the words that never meant
its hard to wander

how did you keep it all in
or throwing it away
the troubled nightmares
from the dream, from our dreams

the words never came out right
i wonder how the last kiss should've been
these memories they hurt still
babe do u still want me?

so i walk on, away from the mess
separation brings about
just how much he means to you
i leave, just the way things were

so i dont wanna say goodbye
sorry wont do for the tears that i cried
babe farewell, i'll see you
maybe at your wedding day.

long drawn night, painted on a pretty sky
on a messy table, cluttered and without direction
a strength that cant serve its purpose
desires that have been leashed
a heart that's tired

portraits that remain to haunt
broken glasses that cut superficially
and wounds that heal and the scars that tear
a head that's heavy, a heart that wants so much more

the cold song that sings, amid a distant past
a flame that burnt out, a ighter that remains
fuel that has been poured out
time refuses to light the spark
a hand that holds on too tightly

the cool night, with a gentle breeze
someone divine in the midst
the clutter and the clouded
a sword to pierce the darkness
a light to shine the way forward.

i think you're beautiful,
no one would come close
just stay by me,
i must keep from staring

its just the way your hair is
or how elusive your smile is
tease me, let me in
you've got me absoulutely smitten

i think you're beautiful
its just the eyes
and the way you move
so much about you
so much thats true
so much hidden about you

Able

For You alone are able
Everything that I need,
The strength for these feeble knees
For both standing and kneeling
The hope for this torn heart
That somehow struggles to beat

I know I’ve been set free
Free to be all I am to be
I rest on this guarantee
Of Your love for me

For You alone deserve all glory
Your more than what I can see
The plans and gifts you have for me
Something’s I can never imagine them to be

How can I walk this road?
The endless and tedious
I long to see Your face
How long must I wait upon You?

For You alone are faithful
You never forget those you love
I know I know and I rest on Your guarantee
This infinite love for me

And in this, You have made me able
To stand even though I fall
Before You, for You alone are able.