smile on sunshine

how will i hold on
so many years to prove my love
i'll take day by day
for tt smile on sunshine

life will throw its stroms
and its fair share of angry moments
but with u by my side
the sun will shine

how long will this last
i cant say for sure
i dun like promises
tt disappoint

but one thing's for sure
i'll be there i'll do my best
for my sunshine
and the smile tt tops it

sword

metal gleems on a polished hilt
wielded by feelings of someone
i do not know
it stabs twists and wrenches

my heart's out of place
stabbed repeatedly
im on my knees
holding on to the blade

seeing blood flowing from my hands
yet i will not let us go
the hilt bears my tears
as it nears my heart

the sword
draws deeper
i can feel no more
numbed and unaware

missing

miss youre vioce
even though its the
only sound in my head
miss seeing you
even though youre all i see

i dont like this silence
of both of us not talking
it hurts me so
i'll never let go

missing youre presence
even though youre with me
in dreams and empty spaces
miss talking to you
and im wondering
if you miss me too

it hurts to be away
when days become weeks
and when i cant remember
your smile, your laugh, your touch

i miss you, i really do
once isnt enough
im seeing you in dreams
im crying hurt tears

i miss you
i really do....


*dun get too worried, i guess i need to deal with everything inseide of me....and hopefully this helps*

tomorrow

one more day till i'll finally know
how it will be for us both
maybe we'll continue maybe we'll separate
but i can only wonder

will we have the chance to talk things through?
maybe we wont even get the chance
so many questions unanswered
so many questions yet to come

maybe thats why life's a thriller
maybe thats why life's so hard
but i hope we'll find the answers
by tomorrow

keep up

when the storms come
when you feel like giving in
keep ur head up
every cloud
has its silver lining

i'll keep up, i wun give in
patience my dear
im sure time will help
maybe we cant talk now
but im sure we'll work things out

i'll wait for ur answer
and i hope ull stay

this can come to a happy ending
its up to us
whether we'll stay
or let this go.

silence

that's the sound i hear
thats Him when He's near
I know there's nothing to fear
Even though He doesnt say anything

When the waves of human emotion
threaten to bring my faith to destruction
when i stumble, fall and sink into depression
His grace is sufficient,
His wisdom spoken through words of silence

Through the storms of life
through sorrows tears and strive
of men's taunts and hurtful lies
He's there for me, working in everything
silent as He can be

When i cry out to the heavens
when all is lost and forsaken
When i seem to get no answer at all
His silence convicts me
and saves me from my fall.

For through His silence,
He says: "Be still and know that I am God"

missing you (till it hurts)

miss ur vioce
even though
ur the sound i hear
miss seeing u
even though
ure all tt i see

every moment
i spend dreaming abt u
somehow it brings me closer
to the time i can see u

time doesnt wait for me
neither does it help us be together
i dont want to question why
for i fear asking in vain

miss talking to u
any other way
doesnt seem right
miss being w u
even though
ure w me in dreams

i try to reach across the distance
yet no matter how i try
ur hand is too far away
for this aching heart of mine

i dun want to be missing u
it hurts me too much sometimes
yet i dun want to let go of u
coz i dun want to hurt u

i scream why
i want to give up trying
i dont know why
we're so far apart
yet so close at heart

i still miss u
even though i try not to
i try to let go
to no avail

i scream, i cry out loud
in futile attempts
to alleviate the pains
of my aching heart.

roses words and love

scented and pleasent
though thorns it has
yet the joy it brings

things my heart can give
some money cant buy,
some only words can provide

things i'd love to give
i guess even roses nor words can bring
just care concern and affection

roses words and love
three things i strive to bring
maybe a single stalk
a phrase or an assurance of commitment

so heres to hoping,
ull accept all gifts i bring
tangible or not
i strive to hear u laugh
and to see u smile
and to prevent any tear.....

paper slip

she handed me a paper slip
folded neatly on a rectangle
my heart's in a flurry
its hard to entangle
what mistakes ive done in the past
when it all comes to haunt me
try as i might i cant stand fast
all my worries have gotten the better of me

the paper slip lies as it once was,
blue ink leaks through
revealing the shadow of words
that i worry to see

courage and strength fail me
as i struggle to open the slip
it lies taunting me
haunting me with memories
tt shdnt have been

mistakes tt were made
of times i was in a hurry
and things tt i said
the consequences are to great
for me to bear
worries to much for me to handle

all in a moment's past
my hands' stuck fast
to the paper slip
tts the source of my worries
it burdens me
to the extent i'd rather not look
why did i say the things i said
im burdened by regret
over the emotions i held

and the thoughts i now hold.

Search

feeding off the emotion,
drowning in the wave of emotion
lost in the emotive beats, rythm and blues

puuling a guitar string,
running away from questions
messing up everything

fighting alone,
soaring and never flying
dreaming alone

leaving them behind,
ever changing
souls quench for more

thirsty and hungry
falling on torn dreams
burnt by the fires of depths

let me break free
try to be me
try to let u see
its all tt can be

im standing here waiting in vain
trying thru the pain
im going insane

just for ur touch
ur words of speech
why must someone hold u back

i want to be free
i hope u see me
im all tt i can be
i know u see me

why must u be held back
why cant i bring this to one higher level
why?