can you?

can you hear the sound of a broken heart?
the pieces that have fallen apart
the sounds that no one wants to hear
kept inside under plastic out of fear

i dont ask for pity
no i dont need that money
i just want your company
that empathy and your presence with me
to tie me over when im lonely

can you feel just how i feel
the words that i dont have
to describe the pain i conceal
from waking from a dream so real

i dont ask for sympathy
i just want to know if you're free
free to comfort this unattractive me
no broken heart's lovable
when it brings too much to the table

can you understand how much it means to me
to walk once again, to love you freely
this dream i have, it may not come true
you can call me the fool
for perhaprs only fools hope that
maybe one day, i will be able to love you

jonas

jonas jonas jonas
you don't have to carry it all
we all make mistakes
you got to move on

you don't have to punish yourself
you jsut dont have to take responsibility
she doesnt want you to.

why am i still so broken, many steps from where i left
yet not so very far ahead
facing consequences, waking from a dream into reality

jonas jonas jonas
could any sin be too big?

surendering these that i held onto for so long
fallen at Your feet, felled by Your word
to stop the bleeding somehow
by simply speaking

where do i go from here?
i cant wait for the time to past by
they dont seem to mean anything
until later, too much later

here i trust, that somehow
things will work out
even though Your promises hold true
i know it wont be an easy road

letting go of these things
that i may have everything
picking up the sword once again
the armor that feels so foreign

for a fight thats worthwhile
that starts with surrender and ends with You
so here i go on
i go on with You

God's Promise

the length of it, the beauty captured
once more perhaps, worth the wait

forgiven much, here in Your promises i stand
somehow even after all i've gone through
why do i keep on waiting,
theres so much more than the unseen

somehow You care for these dreams i have
i wonder what are the dreams You have for me
tell me, let me know, if only You let me see
even if it never were to happen, i'll trust in You

Your promises still true, somethings that i will hold on to
a love so true, so divine, i trust in You

not ever to find, a name more beautiful
more than what it means....

to be

to be strong, to be just who i want to be
am i true to who i am, to this image i set before me?
to this man i go forward, not all sure of what i will get
i wont solve all problems, nor will the world be changed
just a few will do, it matters to them

to be who i want to be, to be just me
who am i i wonder. i change everyday
closer to what i am to who i stand for
this fight for perhaps who i am

to be a man, to be able to face whats true
to the storms that this world holds
to hold you, once more.

Soldier, why do you?

do you still see them in your dreams
the things you did to the undeserving
for the sake of mistaken ambitions
can you say you don't think you're wrong?

to the girl whose innocence you stole
to the town, whose simplicity you trampled upon
one word to reconcile, just one word to allow them to move on

how do you hold onto a pride that's now lost
to stare down the little boy who cried out for help
the things you did, yet you still stand
while many lost their lives that day

its been more than 50 years
they've cried more than a thousand tears
don't turn away when you've been staring down
that day you raped that town.

i dont have the answers
to the questions i still hold
months on, time hasnt shown much
i hope still, yes i will
walk, for i know You

the questions that are answered by Your presence
the prayers i whisper are greeted by Your rain
and i fall on my knees, and hear Your promises again
so i fall apart, for a purpose for a reason

i dont have all the strength
to carry on this fight i call life
months go on, from weeks, from days
i look on, i look up to You
You never change, yes You never will
so i walk, for You are.

the cries of desparation are met with care and tears
the bruised knees fallen on soft hands
and i fall on You, i just let go
dropping from where i am, under Your wings

i dont know much, i walk too often with sight

my turn

watching them leave, taking off from here
hearing them go, the stories they share
i wonder here, when will it be my turn

dont leave me here all alone, sometimes it easier to wait
and hope that somehow you'll be picked up
someone give me that courage to wait it out
to ask you out.

what does it take to belive, there's so much more to this
that at the end of it all, this time wont really matter as much
i watch them go, watch you go, i feel so left behind

these wings are ready, push me, let go of me
i'll fly for all to see
im ready, yes i'll be.

invincible

and we were invincible
unstoppable, friendships that last
through this time here
ever ones to look up too

the last goodbyes were'nt very well said
the choices we made
well aware of who we all are
in this company we were men

the waters that swept over
the turns we took and made
remember the victory?
it made you feel invincible

now we're invincible
don't go so soon, men dont cry
no not in front of us
don't let go these memories

we meet no more, we play on a different ground
the smiles were made, things left unsaid
the price we paid, yes, its worth it
cause of the wonderful friends we made

invincible, we always were dear brother
remember our ways we made our mistakes
paid our dues, and came out stronger
we cry that we cant look back

its more than you can take
no one's there when you call my name
be invinclble, be unstoppable
race on in love, never fear
we're right here in your heart
even in the midst of tears
invincible.

why do i long, the questions linger
in the dark of tonight
the dreams i once had, the contentment i should feel
so far away, i cry

something that died, that was torn down
of times that drift past me
too painful to touch yet often revisited
how do i carry on, how did i

and this time i go on, walking on, somehow
looking forward but still seeing you
tearing and putting down
i turn away once again

a work of art smeared and smudged
was made to last but somehow couldnt
i was woken from the dreams we shared
into reality perhaps.

why do i ask, how long must i wait?
the scars stare back
the memories etched deeply.
unattractive, as wounded.

theres something about you
just how you move and talk
the way your hair flows
and the way you captivate

then again i cant go too near
i day dream i wonder i look forward
yet once again i wish you felt the same
even though my head tells me we cant be together

walking on looking back isnt ever easy
into the darkness i take this journey
back to where i should've left so long ago
i cant go back in time, but will this be worth it?
demanding so much from me, never satisfied
when will you let me go?
spit me out throw me out just dont pull me down

the road winds and bends
delaying and keeping me
from where i want to be
here i stand, still fearful of you

walking on, mileage increasing on tired legs
burdens that never lightend
i look ahead to the end that never was this near
and here i fall into you once again
for one of the last times
i hate you but im proud of the connection

the war that rages on
halls and rows and rows
that go on and on
papers that pile up
burdens that cut so deep

weapons of war that need to be filled
friends by your side, press on
the race will end soon,
just look up and ahead

the war for paper
the words that elude
and formulas that cant get by
i'm praying for you
the student who crawls on

walk on.
just do so.
look up and on
walk on.

looking for love

in the corners hiding somewhere
the love i wanna find, one i wanna have
im looking for love but i just dunno where to go

for her hand to hold
someone i could talk to
just the one i wanna be with
looking for love
maybe on the wrong side of town

in the corners hiding somewhere
in the distance over there
the love of my life, one i wanna have
have i already met her, or has she yet to come
the longings too much to bear

dreams

take these dreams...

lay it down at Your feet
these important pieces of me
the visions and expectations
i give it up to You

trusting there is so much more
that Your dreams bigger and holier than mine
such a great purpose
more than these dreams
i find You

of love of companionship
how i long for her even now
confused and expectant
dreaming of that day i walk with her
dreaming, yes i dream

i give them up to You
these dreams of a future
for something brighter
yes You know what i need
i trust, in Someone so much bigger

and the pieces that lie on the floor
You pick them up and put them back
You know just how much they mean to me
but not as much as You mean to me
so i give them up to You
these dreams

take these dreams....
oh take them, take them..
and make them Yours.

for sophia

two years on and she's still running
chasing the broken pieces
dear girl, hold them like water
it hurts to see ure no further
than two years before

sophia, im praying for u
it hurts that bad, i wish your first love
went along that much better
sophia, so many care
let Him heal, let it be
its hard i know it is

through the fields and deserts
this life brings, one more scar
on top of many more
smile more, thats the way you are

sophia, dont let the past hurt
dun hide the tears dear girl
let Him touch and heal
sophia, im sure ull find that someone special
im praying for u, and hoping
ull be better soon.

letter box

buried by the dust from time
reading one by one again
feeling the mending
feeling so warm
letters from the past
they never recorded any happy ending

letters to remind myself not to be bitter,
to tell me i've failed, one two and three
regrets and parts of me given and broken
love letters where'smy happy ending?

letter boxes oh so full, once a heart
this heart of mine was like that too
try as i might, search as far as sight
maybe not tomorrow or the day after

love lost, love not found. here i am
writing a sad love song.

count

count one, count twice
not even seventy seven would suffice
the Son of Man has enabled
total forgiveness to be no fable
and upon that cross,
the power of death He disabled

come on in, join in the party
the celebration of life in the fullest
you dont ever have to feel lonely
in the presence of the Greatest
our sins have been far removed

count once, count twice
not even this lifetime would suffice
to know the number of
blessings He has showered
even when giants towered
He has empowered
so that we may not be conquered

tonight

tonight, here by myself
noisy outside but i cant respond
i've run so far so fast
from You and toward You

but i know, i have nothing
apart from You
for what ive gained, what i've lost
are nothing compared to Your beauty

tonight Your light blinds me
once again im humbled by Your majesty
a God who loves so deeply
despite knowing all my sin

take me as i am, drown me once again
Your mercies ever so new,
my sins ever so persistent
Your love ever so insistent

love song

the songs that represent
that bring pieces of my heart
memories that have been stirred
i cant even listen, sometimes
its too difficult

so here i sing, words that dont come out
articulation broken by dreams
that i'm learning to let go off

i cant believe how easily youve forgotten
but its better that way
i cant believe how easily you let negativity in
but its better that way
i cant believe how easily you turn away
how easily im left behind
to ponder, to cry, to wonder

but now in the pile of broken memories
broken dreams an broken pictures
you feel its better that way.

so here i sing, on bended knees
in gravel that cuts so deep
a love song that was, now isnt
to a sun that sets and a winter that dawns
i sing, cause somehow, it comforts me

the love songs that play
they cut into me
this memory
was i wrong to fall in love?
let me back in time, let me undo all the wrongs

oh the pain, the suffering
of a love that maybe shouldnt have occured
a prayer that wasnt answered
a heart thats very much cheated
these tears that fall, coated in blood
of a heart so broken, of a man so in need

and i sing, whispering so
what was once our song
i sing, softly,
where no one hears me.

my apology

so here i am to say im sorry
please accept this apology from me
its the best i can do
but i know the wounds are too much to heal

this my irresponsibility
saying words without thinking
exploding with no sense of my surroundings
i dont know how u'll forgive me but please do

one too many times, expectations held too high
i come crashing down again, from places too high
one too many times, love thats not right
Lord Jesus wont you be my light

so here i am to say im sorry
wont you please forgive me
i cant take this silence anymore
risking this friendship

im sorry i dunno how to deal
i dunno why i still feel
this way...throw it all away...
throw it all away...

and i still grope around for my answers
feeling the hurts deep down inside
stumbling around

im happy for you
that you've got what u needed
the freedom and the healing
the answers too

its just that im left, left alone,
groping, wondering, whats in it for me
so much given up but it wasnt worth it at all
here i drift away, away once more

i stay empty as ever, wishing things were different
they cant get any worse.
call it self pity, call it a childish want for attention
u cant understand it with busyness and on a higher platform.
words alone, words alone cant soothe any hurt..

pierce

how it pierces the human soul
when no ones around to defend and stnd by
i feel it deep within, the shadows overcasing
the reminder of the life i live
and cant get out off
just the four walls, in a world so far off
from ideal.

woman

the other, just as human
beautiful, like a rose
wonderfully made, carefully so
delicate yet ever so strong
love her, cherish her, open your heart to her
offer your listening ear, listen brothers, listen
do your best to notice the little things she does for you
even the routine, be your helper's helper
be decisive, strong against sin, be a man
cry when you have to, pour out your heart when needed
say how you feel, not only what went on
she can see that, she's ever so perceptive
dont watch tv or listen from behind some paper
hug her, assure her, tell her she's beautiful
tell her she's worth it, tell her u want her, and no one else
speak with actions, speak with love, dont criticise
get angry, but dont vent it out, no not on her!
shame not, but encourage more

a woman, how privileged you are to love her
to share your life with her and her with you
how many persons out of many a billion?
such a privilege, not to be romanticised
i want to be ready. someday.

can you ever stop a heart from aching,

how can i miss the biggest thing in my life
more than how i never noticed how you changed your hair
more than how youve got your heart on God
here i go breaking my heart again

its never enough! its always so far away

they always say the young take it harder
my hearts that much softer
disappointed, trying to, trying to get up again
always losing in this beautiful game

how i miss you so, how i havent gotten over you
why why why do i feel the way i do
just to be there or you, to trip over once again
just to get over this pain

can you ever stop a heart from aching and wanting?
how do i keep trusting, throwing and abandoning
its so easy to say but so hard to do
to keep this heart from breaking, wanting, hurting

here i find life
in the cruxifiction of it
i find my crown, when i cast it down
oh the strength and empowerment,
in admissions of weakness

You are holy, i am not
i am worthy, because You died for me
yes You did.
and i am hopeful, in things that are real
because You live, You rose, and live.

my dreams are much clearer, when i give them up
even though it breaks my heart
no wound too great for Him to heal
no tear too painful for Him to make a gem

message

looking through these messages
a reminder of how blessed we are
i have nothing to be bitter about
a love thats true, that God has taken
to make it better, somehow.

and im reminded that
i did not take u for granted
of all the times together
much have i learnt, much i've given.
but its all worth it, of a love that never asks

looking at them, a tear comes to my eye
a question, wats God going to do?
so here i trust once again
for He not only takes, but gives too

the memories behind the messages
the love cherished, and shared
sacrificed and given to the author of Romance
here i give You this pen, our pen.
for You write better, than any lover.

will we get it back? questions abound
even though months have passed till now
how the pain has healed, how far we've gone
miracles still happen, i know they will

and i fall before You
casting my crowns
trophies and adoration
till this place is holy ground

and there will never be another like You
and i praise You, with all i do
even in imperfection, You never turn
You never turn away from me

You know me through and through
You know whats best, i trust
with such an imperfect trust
but You never turn away
You never do, Your mercies pour forth

Your everywhere, whether i acknowledge or not
this earth too small, the universe all but a footstool
yet not too big for all small problems
You stooped down to raise my face
my shame guilty soul
You said to me
yes You did

I love u.
Yes I do.

how did you feel today
when u heard and read the tragedies
did you celebrate? or cry with me
lives lost, it didnt matter
what they sought or believed in
all that mattered, was that they were the same
as you and i, not only human
but loved, missed, cherished

how did you feel today
were you blinded by the scars
or did you forget how to question
do you remember who you are?

here tears that fall, knives that fall
here we fall, humanity shaded in the fall
i forgive you, yes i do
for Christ forgave, so i forgive you.

can i find the satisfaction, to this longing
to this waiting

take me to my knees, break this calloused heart of mine
to give to You whats worthy, recognising theres not much i can give
just me, just me
these tears that will one day become gems in Your hands
mold me, break me once again, i've nothing to lose
once i've got You

every night with the pain, i turn to You
and i find more than what i need
i've got You

amidst the broken pieces, here on bruised knees
with my broken restless heart
the rain of tears, of all fears
more than all of these, Your healing rain
and i wait upon You, with this restless desire

This Run

and i know i dont run alone
even though these nights tell me so
the race for the crown that He will give
and i will cast at His feet
for it is by grace i will reach the goal

jesus such a sweet name
a friend who runs with me
who carries me through when the storms
when the battles take their toll.

forgive me for seeking You
when the times are bad and forgetting
that You run with me in the good
here i am, change and renew

and i adore You, need You closer to me
i know that even though my heart is broken
no matter how i feel, its You who carries
and i love u, because You loved me first

keep me running for You, and when i crawl back
from a lost trip outside, i know You run towards me
i fall in wonder, how a great God would run for me
i love You, thank You for not ever leaving me

this run is worth it, because of You.
yes it is, yes it is.

here i struggle once again, amidst the pieces of my broken heart
i know it wont be easy, my Lord wont You carry me
i've nothing left but You, tell me where to go and i will

with feelings and the desire to be her shoulder
just to be there for her like yesteryear
i know this not Your will but why are my desires so strong?
Lord how can this be i know You have whats best in store

im confused, i want to go on, but here i lie
weakened by these desires, i am not strong enough
will i ever love again? see me through like You promised
mend the broken pieces, i dont know how to carry on

here i kneel once again before You
with all my broken pieces
please put them back, oh how i want You
here my feeble prayers get a worthy Audience
have mercy upon me..

For You

in the night where everyone except me has friends
these days are so hard to get by
and even though look back in question, God is the answer
in the pain of loneliness, one day i know it'll be worth it
cause im saving myself for you

For you,
i dont know now who you are
but i know God will bring us together
and i will love you now
letting God prepare me to be the man i am to be
how far i am from there! but i will press on
for God and for you

to have someone to be there for
to love, to cherish and to hold onto
to say your beautiful and to listen to
and my heart aches for you
but i wait upon God
for you

i dont know who you are
where you are or how far away we are
but one day God will bring me to you
and you to me, till then i wait
for i know His treasure
are often made with tears

i wonder what you are doing now, how you are
its so exciting to think that God will let me meet you

You take me, even though i hurt You
nothing can keep me from You
no matter how much i know
i'll never grasp Your mercies
how You allow me in Your presence
with new clothes to wear,
clothed in the blood of Jesus
how You love, how You treasure
mighty are You, You will accomplish all You set out to do

even though the storms rages, even though i sin and stumble
You are determined, You remain King, Lord of all over.
You uproot the seeds sown in bitterness
may Your name be praised.

cries from a bitter man

i ask why, how can this all happen
what was once so beautiful
now alls left is a broken man longing after someone
who's gone, who's hurt, who doesnt want me around
even though i can be, as was once before

painful memories, celebrations supposed to be due
but now not anymore, its been taken away,
wrenched from my heart, tearing me apart
a soul that has been crippled, limping on

and i ask once again, feeling the bitterness once again
how can you do this, how can You? do you care? do You care?
i dont know how to go one, youve changed so muich of my life
and now youve gone, fearful, im torn inside out

its hard to smile that much, roses that have withered
age where there once was youth
resentment and regret where joy once filled
just a shell, just a faithless man, on his knees
thats what i've become, do you look on?
i cant pretend that nothing has happend.
im not you, i just cant pretend.

and i ask once again, how do i get on
abandoned, left behind, are you there?
are You there? is there hope for me?
what i know is tested, its hard to pass

how could you, how could you, how could you
i never knew, this side of u.

when the cries of an empty soul
accompanies the sounds of a breaking heart
in these four walls, in human limitation
when pride and shame mock, idols to be felled.

the comfort that surpasses all,
even though all my dreams seem so unfulfilled
even if the wounds gape and yawn
the great divide has been bridged
by One greater tha my sin and hurts

when i dont know what i need
You come in and fill me up
when i am so unfaithful
when i cant believe
help me to believe!

the presence of a God so mighty
im astounded, and questions remain unanswered
but i have You instead.

here i wait, a heart that's broken, a desparate offering
in pieces i come, with so much in my hands, scars and wounds
to still my soul, to give my all.
to receive, to satisfy, here i am, here i wait

how it pains my heart and how can this be
all i give to You, i shall quarrel no more
i await for my hearts still with her.
is it Your will that i wait? oh that You lead me

here i wait, for truth, for peace, to quiet the storm
and even though it rages on, You are still my God
faithful and true, You satisfy me and break me once again
here i wait, do i wait for her? even if i do not get answers
i will press on in You.

and yes i will wait upon You, in heart, in mind, in prayer
i will wait to see Your plans for us
to see what You will do, i will wait now for You
for i wait upon You, to show us the way.

do u still care?
tell me im not alone in what i feel
the shaterring of hearts, can they ever be healed?
i still want to see you more often
though not from a distance
feels like we got it wrong

tell me how you feel oh please do
maybe im not the loser in love
how can i say i care when i cant do anything
dreams and hopes, im still waiting
these feelings i have for you
are very much a part of me

i dont know how things will turn out
but upon Him i will wait
to see how things will turn out
will i ever be with you again
or will someone else take that privilege?

do believe in miracles? do u think theres hope for us?
do u think maybe one day we'll walk hand in hand once more?
is it so wrong to hope? is it wrong to wait?
why do i still want to be with you? do u want the same?

thirty days

its just been thirty days
but i still want to be with you
hoping against all hope
thinking about you everyday
maybe im not used to it
or maybe its just you
but i still wanna be with you

thirty days dun do nothin
thirty days aint much
wonder how i'll feel next year
its deep inside of me
i still wanna be with you

do you understand the pain im going through
i wish i could be on the other side
dun just leave me here alone
did u even bother trying to understand?

its so much easier for you to just go
leaving me alone, hurting once too many times
just the year wasnt enough right?

these questions i bear
promises made and days that have yet to go by
will i turn back one day and call myself foolish?
or will i look back with the one i love
and praise His holy name?

how do i go on from here
so many years more to go
here i walk on with You
i can only trust with my limitations

these answers that i will see one day
promises fulfilled as You prepare my heart
though i see them not, not now, not sure how,
i know You will carry out whats best

my heart yearns, it aches still
oh how the wounds have healed
but love must go on,
must struggle through.

as You hear my cries, though sometimes
i know not the language to put them in
and i still praise You
no matter what i've been put through
no matter all that will happen

what do you do when you wanna be there
to hold, to cherish to reverse time maybe once again
when you care for her even though things have changed
but not everything changes

wheres my second chance, or the promises
oh wait my soul wait upon Him, upon love's wings
is there more that i can do than hope and pray?
sometimes waiting is so important
a lesson im taking a lifetime to learn

what do you do when she's broken and you're so far away
leave the phone on and wait and pray
rest on His bosom like the child you are
laid down are my plans and dreams and hopes
desires and wants and needs.

wheres the years gone past? lessons learnt
scars and wounds healed by a Savior
locusts that have come and driven away
a garden in replating a room being refurbished

the road i travelled on once again
the same road with many memories
the same ride im in with familiar faces
but its me thats changed

and i revisit these places, seeing how we used to be
the happy times and those in tears
the dreams once had, and still do, amazingly so
waiting upon the Rock of salvation

do you remember the bench overlooking that pond?
or how many hours we spent talking on it
the places visited, the times cherished
oh how i shdnt regret, cause we didnt know
how we hurt but its a lesson learnt to prepare
who knows what's to come?

this road i travelled on today was one i spent time on
how it was used to mold me.
the callouses of the heart broken off
but the feet and hands protected from blistering

and when i run my hand across what once bled
i feel the pain no more, but instead
pieces that were put back in the right places

from reminiscing, i look, far and away
beyond my future, beyond my plans,
up to the hills
from where my help comes from, the maker of the heavens and earth

phone

that dial tone after it all
in the silence a cruel reminder
that the next conversation will have to wait
i push the receiver far away from my ears

a dead tone in the cold air
it doesnt break the silence
it doesnt cover the sound of a breaking heart
when goodbyes arent ever good
thats when the dial tone hurts more than a cut

i put the phone down as fast as i can
to make sure i cant hear whats on the other end
to drown out the sounds that i make
and the hurting the phone gives

i wish

i wish time could turn back
then maybe i can right all the wrongs and prevent today
i wish i could still be there
or fly round the world a thousand times over
in hope that things done could be undone
i wish my wishes could come true!
then maybe i'd be holding u now
how i miss ur head on my shoulder

how the hands of time pierce me so
how sharp how bitter.
i wish u were with me even now

how i wish.

i still.

i still want to be there for u, to be someone special
theres so much i dont know what to do,
want to listen and to protect and to care
just that now i cant do so like the past

but i'll trust in God i'll do away with small thoughts of Him
i'll believe in large thoughts, that He is good and has a purpose
even in these tears, even with these desires, as strong as ever
in God i'll trust.

still wanna hold u when u cry, to tell u that everythings gonna be alright
still hope to do that now and then, still wanna hold your hand
i still miss you like i always did
how can i wait how can i fall out of love?

but i'll trust in Jesus, he who commands my destiny
who knows me and how weak i am, oh the weariness i feel!
HE understands it all and i'll trust your heart with Him
why must it be this way, how can You say its not over?
its You i'll seek, its You i will trust
and i will declare of your goodness

these broken pieces, i'll let You mend
Lord, hear our cries, please send Your healing rain
upon her, upon us...

will you

will you let Him in?
will you remember who He is?
will you trust and obey?
even in the pain.

the God of ages, lets praise Him in all seasons
even though He leads us to fires or on broken roads
will you praise Him in the pain?

elizabeth

from the heart, this words couldnt be anywhere else
no regrets, no not even one for falling in love with you
oh how my heart feels torn but in God i trust, i trust Him with you
in the brokeness of separation, of different levels His hand holds yours

can i say it one more time, i love u, and with these words i know we mean it
on this path we have to go, apart, painfully, hear Him declare "I AM"
who was and is and is to come, who never changes, who has poured out HIs love
giving us Jesus, elizabeth, how beautiful a name befitting you
may you praise Him in the storm, may His spirit enable you to praise Him at all times

even if i could go back in time, i will not change anything about you, about me or us
im thankful for all He's odne in our lives and all you've done
the smile that swept me off my feet, the eyes i longed to look into
such a wonderful chapter in our lives, im glad u came into my life and heart

elizabeth, i wont go on looking for anyone to replace you,
till God tells me so. you're still special in my life
oh elizabeth how my heart aches but we are not alone
what u would give to see you many more times, to hold you once again

but here i let go, of you of us of these feelings, to the God
who gives and takes away, to the great I AM, to my risen Lord
elizabeth may you be blessed, ask for more from Him
dance when you can, even in the storm, dance on for HIm

be who you are, for God is glorified when u are u
cherish those around you, serve with gratitude
whenever the tears threaten to blur your sight
may Jesus wipe them away.

elizabeth, may God bless you, oh how goodbyes are so hard to say

when Your mercy falls

when Your mercy falls like rain
when its so much more than these tears i cry
when hope is gone and the vision too far
here i am, in the arms of a compassionate God.

here i cry to You, mumbled praises from a broken heart
improper prayers interrupted with tears
and You tell me this is how You want it to be
for this prepares me, for what You have in store

when Your grace flows, covering my ugly sins
when the past seemed so much better,
now i learnt to let go. i cant do it all
when the pain comes You are close
closer than these tears.

You healed the wounds, the scars and the brokeness
what can i do but to praise You
i adore You and here i worship You
even if everything i have everything
it wouldnt be an offering enough
for what you desire, is a broken and contrite heart

for here i am, ready to be used, i wanna know You better
no matter what it takes, let me walk by faith.

even in darkness, in tears, that i may trust You
pour Your grace upon us, to trust when emotions and feelings tell us otherwise
that the rain may not make us lose sight of You
You are all we need, You will provide
You are faithful, true and worthy

Praise be to You, for mercies are yours, and You give, and You take away.
Praise be to You, for Your grace and comfort in such times
Praise be to You for giving a commmon vision
Praise be to You for Your word.

hallelujuah!

song

this song i sing, one of hope, patience and long suffering
our song for now changing in tune every now and then
i sing it when ure not right here with me
hoping, cherishing and waiting for you

its beautiful and it gets better each day.
sometimes it goes out of tune, sometimes it rocks
but always its a good song to sing
in my heart, always, singing our song.

one of persevereance, trials, temptations
but one of Christs victory over all
one of love, forgiveness, beauty, love
romance, changes, and a wonderful teamwork.

i wish i knew more, so much more
so that i could understand
and know and never hurt
but then, i wdnt need God

i must i must, trust and believe
His peace, He is more than enough.
please bless her, i still love her
i dont noe everything, i dont understnad
but i still love her so.

through the pain that i feel
it cuts so deep in this heart of mine
breaking and shattering, bringing so many questions to mind
wondering how she is doing, want to reach out and touch her once again

through the loneliness i feel
i dont have many friends
so few that i can turn to
nothing to ocupy myself with

but i look up to You, to see Your hand
oh the nail pierced hands, and the silence falls
how i wish, for a miracle, for Your grace
to wash away our pain. i hope we can start anew

im still waiting for you, even though its hard
the hardest thing i'll ever have to do
theres so much more to you, so much more i wanna know
i dont believe in chances or coincidences
we are together for a reason, some of them i cant comprehend

i still want to hold onto your hand
and get lost in those eyes of yours
im still holding on, not for what you can give
but its for you, just to know you better

He is still faithful and i still wanna hold onto Him
even when im weak and losing grip, He catches me
comforts me through this pain and suffering
when im sinking in the stormy water
He reaches out once again.

when the sounds and noises and voices come to silence
when the night falls when loneliness sets in
You are there, You provide, and im satisfied
You know, You care, and im glad You've provided for her, for me, for us,
You've provided her, comforting and strengthening me thruogh her

i fall on my face, i am amazed, by Your grace and mercy
how and why do You still love me, even in times i turn away from You
dont the cuts still sting? dont they remind You of Your time on the cross
when i sin, when i reject in thoughts, in actions and lie and pretend

i forget You so easily, yet Your word and presence shout out around me
i tire so easily, my heart weary from waiting and hoping that Your promises come true
crawling is all i can do, if i even want to, i feel the rocks and sand tear away flesh
i reach out to hold, Your outstretched hand. i listen, to Your soothing voice
i feel the pain, i want to press on, in the wintery season, i refuse to be bitter

washing down in rain, give me Jesus, give me Yourself, i need You in this dark hour
i will seek until i find, even though i am sick, even though i find no meaning
i will.

im here, not by myself,
One who hears and knows
healed and renewed, ready to face whats to come
with her right now

but He holds me back, commands me to "be still"
saying she's not ready, and theres more for me to learn
what about tomorrow? or whats to come, surely now's the time
"trust Me", the voice that created me, louder than the rushing waves
spoken gently, seldom the answers come, He offers Himself
"wait on Me", from the voice who spoke the heavens into place
this is Who i will trust

i want to go and be with her, i dont understand whats going on
"but I do", and my soul is held together by His peace, by the nail scarred hands
"I know what's best", our future is intact, protected, and i wait
restless at times, even now, in His awesome presence,
but He still loves me and accepts, even with the many flaws sin has brought about

and even though tears threaten to drown me, with a heart that wants to break
and a mind not strong enough to hold on, He comes in, "do not be afraid"
"I am here", washing away my worries, calming my soul, leading me
to refreshing waters, to streams of living water, He holds me again

watching over us, i trust, in Him, i believe in His unfailing love
He listens and understands all we go through, so here i wait
even though i do not understand, event hough i want things to happen now
i wait, lying in His arms. and i believe, i hope, and i trust in You
for her!

someone tell her

someone tell her, she's loved, so so much
she's worth it, the most beautiful i've ever known
someone tell her, christ has done so much
and will not ever stop. nail pierced hands
beautiful voice, calling, holding onto her
keeping her together even as the storm tries to tear her apart

someone tell her, i'll wait for her, through these days
its not easy but im holding on, by His grace, on the edge
someone tel her i love her so, with arms wide open
digging deeper, into His strength, falling into His arms

Dear God

i dont know what is happening
please give me the words
i dont know where to start
my heart cries, cries out for comfort
for You. and i still want to praise You
even if its ever so weakly, even if tears blur my vision
please hold my heart together
dear God, help me through this wait
i cant wait i cant wait, i wanna last
please dear Lord....help me to believe.

what do you do

what do you do when u miss someboday
when your special somebody needs that time
its cold at night and i miss her warmth
winter please go away, leave me alone

what do you do, when your heart doesnt know what to do
i know i wanna be with her, wish i could say it out loud
i dont know what to do, but to wait here with my arms wide open

what can i do now, when al i can do is pray and trust
human hearts scream action, for now now now
but i will wait, even though its hard, even if
my heart screams for action, i will wait

what do i do now, i say to myself, God is good.
i pray, feebly, crying in secret, to God
and i believe, i trust He knows whats best
even if the path He led me on, has tears and scars

dont worry

about love or how much to give, to receive
dont worry, i love you as you are
trust, take that step, may God guide you
dont worry, dont you worry.

im here, i'll do my best, to listen, to love
to cherish, to hold and to wait
oh oh the hardest part is to wait
but i do it for love

and i know it'll be worth it,
i dun care what the world has to say
i've seen how yo really are
im sorry for hurting you
and i forgive you, always, always

one night, that night, i hope
you'l fall into my arms, i'll wait
wait for you, dont worry about love
i love u, in all the essences of the words

dont worry, dont worry.

the wait

the wait, this break, tonight
everyday, coming to pass
on this july, this august
the wait, worthwhile
for love, for you
the reassurance, the wait
the encouragement, the lessons learnt
devotion, commitment.

the wait, i'll wait.
to talk, to meet, to be patient
to wait, the wait, to wait.

what would you do, the prince of peace
killed violently, is t only a tragedy?
a care and concern for all thats happend in life

what would you do, when the one which the world is sustained by
gets crucified by those he created and loves
the nails the scar the piercing
the mockery

what would you do, the saviour has risen
glorified and exalted, almighty
coming again soon, and he's knocking on your door,
what would you do.

Lion Of Judah

how could You such holiness
love us, this mystery, this world
we even though we accept Your truths
beating upon Your brest, the Lion of Judah

the voice who sustains, calls me by name
and i stand in awe, my knees buckle in front of You
in this pain, in this suffering, i find You again,
by my side, hands holding mine
saying softly, "It'll be alright"
that same voice that breathed life, that brings order

in this storm, You call me, out of safety
out of this shelter i have made for myself
wanting the best for me, caring and loving
its not about me, but all about You.

Lion Of Judah, Jesus Christ, why do You love me
i see my fingerprints on Your scars, on that flogged back.
Lion of Judah, Creator, Sustainer, You let me do this to You.

the knowledge the wisdom the love, the mystery
captivate my heart once again, i will praise You
i fall and worship, humbled, saddened, raised
there is never enough words, not enough gifts

keep me in, in Your love and comfort
Lion Of Judah.

why must it be so hard
the long road to being like You
time is such a constraint, i cant wait for eternity
mistakes and wounds that heal too slowly
for life to return to normalcy

let me press on in You, not wishing time away
strengthen my legs that i may walk with you
that i may fly above the storms
but even if i get caught n them
strengthen me, that i may praise you in them

speak to me, renew me, restore my hearing
that i may hear, redirect my steps, that they may be in line with Yours
i praise your name, for your name is above all names

when i am weak, you are strong,
when i fail, you carry me,
when i am weak, your grace is sufficient
when i am in pain, you soothe my heart...

thank you for your love so sincere
for ready admissions of weaknesses
and how you care and love me so

here we are standing together still
its been one amazing journey
one i'll gladly continue with you
may i learn to be a better person
for God, for you.

may God be praised for you
the wisdom your support
where would i be without You oh Lord?
in His wisdom He has provided you

amazed i worship Him
in Christ alone we stand here still
may we fall on our knees
together in worship, in awe
of a God so gracious, so merciful, lets be thankful.

you're the best

of flowers words and cards
they cant say how much you mean to me
just small tokens, small appreciations
to tell you that youre the best

of dinners, dates and time spent together
they cant ever be enough
but they'll have to do for now
your beauty your personality, just you
captivate me, my heart.

youre the very best, more than i could ever ask for
beauty and brains, loving and appreciative
i wouldnt want any other, only you will do
i love u! im glad u love me too.
youre the very best, i just wanna be with you

answers

in the wind as it blows
reminding me of Your presence
of how You answer prayers and never stop answering them
im thankful for Who You are
for Your extravagent love

thank You for her
for answering so many prayers we've made
for each other for us for how far we;ve come
why do i find it so hard to trust
the One who'd do so much to save me
why do i have to go through so much
before i know if i can marry her

yet these answers i know not
not now not ever perhaps.
see us thruough i pray
thank You for her recorded prayers
that have been answered!
for the joy we shared
with You

the changes in my heart
oh how much You can do through one person
the answers to my cries
to prayers and hopes
thank You for Your love...

Prayer

dear Lord this prayer i make to You
for you answer for You can change and comfort
hear me now in this time of need

and i pray that You will change me
so that You will be glorified
thank You for her sincere love
Father forgive me for the times i've failed her
for not leading her to Your will but leading into sin
help me to be who You want me to be
to be able to listen and not cut off
to be able to humbly learn from her
how to love her, to guide her in Your truths
to be a man for You and not for the world

Christ please pour out Your grace and love
to love her as You would
to romance and court and to respect
to embrace and appreciate to surrender all to You
walk by our sides and protect, keep us from sin
may we glorify You.

theres so much i do not know,
about You, about her, i cant even name all her favourite foods
Lord that You may change me for Your glory
to crucify my old self to You
and bless all the words that i speak to her
may You bless her and help me to listen better
to hold her hand but not to hold her down
to suggest and be decisive but not to force her to submit
to be there for her and not to take her for granted
to love her and to readily forgive and not to count the cost
to accept and not to compare
to bless with all that i can say and all i shouldnt

thank You for hearing, for loving
even though You know full well how i really am, better than myself..


in Jesus' name,
amen....

in the sounds of life or in silences
when im at rest or busying it doesnt feel the same
without you
i've got a piece of me with you
and it dont feel right when ure away. come back soon
its like my hearts not right, not complete, in two

no hours can ever satisfy, i need you
more than the phonecalls, more than cards and candlelights
more than the kisses, hugs and holding,
i need you for all you are
you are in my heart
ever alive even when ure away.

darling hold on, ull be home son
dun let the winds get to you,
let your soul take refuge in Him alone
find your peace, your strength, your faith
in a God who let His Son die for you and me

in rain or scorching sun
i pray you'll give thnks
in all circumstances abide in Him

i love u and i pray i'll learn to be like Him
to do as He does, to represent Him better
may i be more understanding, loving and patient
i wanna build my home with you!

7 days without you

these seven days i hope they fly by
wish they never had to even come
knocking on my door, i'll have to let them in
somehow today right now, even if i dont
(u know i dont want to) they'll come right in

im so in love with you, theres so much to look forward to.
these seven days without you, i hope they wun be hard on you
i aint crying now, i just miss u so. dun worry about me
i'll be praying for u, worrying too.
come home soon my dear

seven days without you
no calls leser direction, i'll be counting down with gladness
each day brings me closer to you
to the hugs and kisses i long for
to the person, the wonderful young lady i feel in love with

hold on tightly to your faith, pray hard, enjoy the trip
be yourself, be careful, i'll be right here
waiting for u

breath of fresh air

you're like a breath of fresh air,
amidst the cold dust skies
you light up my life, pointing
me to the Way, the Truth, and the Life

may God bless you with all u need,
lifes not really fair all the time but
He's in control, may you know Him better
my live, the love of my life.

you're the best ive had, a great blessing
the silver lining that shines from the dark couds
thank you for giving your best
no one, no one compares to u!
my breath of fresh air

dont go

dont get on the plane
please dun walk up it
i dun want you to go
never ever leave

but i know this is necessary
u need to do what needs to be done
but i still wish u din have to go
come home soon, come home soon
i'll be waiting right here for you

dont fly away to a land far far away
no matter how near its the furthest
i love u and i wish u never had to leave
dont go, dont go oh please dont go

its so far away, oh i wish u could stay
hold my hand and a hug or two
u make my life much more beautiful
i love u, ure beautiful.

i love u and i want whats best
im glad uve decided to do something good
but i wish it din have to invovle u going away
leaving on a striped aeroplane
dont go, dont go, i'll worry and pray
hope and wait

till u fly and land here safely..

till u fly and land here...

safely..

be careful ok?

cant see myself without you

not another day without your touch
not another hour by myself
not another minute without thoughts of you
of dreams of a future of a vision
of love of romance of you

not another day without you
cant see myself without you
this highway we're on aint right
without you by myside

the sun has its sky
music has its place in hearts
you're in my heart
and i cant see myself without you

first time

oh how it feels like the first time everytime
and how fresh and new, refreshingly familiar
comforting and reassuring, i love you
every kiss that i look forward to
given to me its more than the first time

the walks and time, oh it doesnt matter
if its spent in silence, with the winds
or under starry skies, its beautiful
especially so when spent with you

its like the first time, everytime
the way u look at me, in my eyes
and how the feelings seem new
everytime, everytime.

the way you say i love you
from the bottom of your heart,
and how your actions prove it true
im so in love with you

room in my heart

this room youve taken
im glad ure comfortable
do as u see fit, ure my mirror
uve made me a better man
and for u im thankful

the cold has been warmed
and in the storm theres shelter
proper direction to Jesus
some old files have been thrown out
memories and hurts sorted out
take a break, rest here
u deserve it for all youve done

the carpets been laid, fire lit in
the fireplace, im glad ure at home
i hope ull never leave
may u always be here
more corners lie for u to discover
corners i never knew existed
but only to happy to share with u

and on the wall, theres a picture of you and me
there're memories of held hands, videos of first times
sweet moments captured, and dreams of a bright future
i cant wait to marry you, i dream of you
stay oh stay, in thise room in my heart

i love u, i really really do
and i'd rather do nothing with you
than something without here
im a work half done but God's
used u to make me better
cant find a dust ball, the place's tidier
roses and a garden, ive never been better

stay stay stay,
in this room in my heart
make yourself at home,
can i get you a drink?

sinner

how can i hurt you again and again
the prince of peace
who offered the infinite sacrifice
here i am on my knees in tears in fear
please change me i need your grace

here in shame before your throne
the fire burns and i come thirsty
why should you draw me near
this close to you? despite knowing
that i'll sin again

the cross that you bear, the marks you took away
that my burden, my punishment your judgement
my heart is broken at the thought of hurting you
that on calvary my sin, my mocking voice,
the painful hammer upon those nails
that separation.

the resurrection, the tears of joy
the sackcloth flung away
i praise your great Name
and your lamb, by whom i am saved
this joy incomparable

that you left your Fathers side
so that i might live in eternity with you
what love what a wonderful friend of sinners you are
that this life may not be about me but you

captivate, quench and satisfy
come quickly, heal and renew
here i bow once again,
once again you lift me up
forgiven, in victory that you have won!

when i call out in darkness on my knees
He knows the pain, the fatigue and feeling
oh how He cares, for a sinner like me
time and time again, He comes through for me

the deserts and the seas shall not strike fear in me
as i reside under His loving wings
and He cares! through life's ups and downs
everests and conquests
i shall not boast in anything or anyone
other than my Lord and friend
no one shall take His glory, Lord Jesus

The truth the way and the life
leading me on, giving good gifts
and calling me on
His hand holds strong
stronger than any anchor
and i wanna tell you
everything'll be ok
because He's by our side.
breathe after breathe

remember

as i look back on times gone by
stars we saw, bridges and ravines crossed
a God who's faithfulness brought us to our knees
when we look back, someday, today will be a memory

a love so true, so pure, made of so much
God, u and me, tears, love, passion
feelings and just being together
i am who i am today
just cause you were with me
standing making me strong

as i look back on sweet memories
it was worth it. u are worth it.
a tear or two, memories are sometimes hard to relieve.
i love u, i still do.

may eternity never be enough
i dun wanna ever forget
that in this lifetime
i was loved by you

as i look back, photos
gifts, love, cards and written memories
and hoping today will be a wonderful memory
as i look back
years years and years from now...

if a rose, a hug or kiss
could take away your pain
if only u din have to feel this way
i love u dun give up

this pain i feel, i wish ud rest well
and i cant be by ur side
it magnifies how i feel
what can i do,
i can only wait, and to pray

and not to hear your voice
i try not to wither
i wanna be by u right now
dun feel this way
look up im with you
only if physically

candlelight night

what can i say in the light of a candle
flickering and fading, signifying a passing
why cant i be there i could have should have
to offer a word, a hug a ear or two

i hope and pray Jesus will be by your side
holding your hand refreshing your soul
please feel better soon, soon, soon.

the candle goes on, in the cool of the night
shedding light on you, your beautiful face
tear streaked, it saddens may the Lord
comfort you, bless you and keep you

may He give you the peace you need
in candlelight moments like this
lighting your path, i know i know
He holds you and im glad He does

blow the light out, its time for bed
sleep tight my darling, you mean so much to me
i'd give the world and everything
just to watch you sleep, with His peace upon you
and to say i love you. and mean each word

and to see a smile on your face.

in this candlelight night, may we not be lonely
i wish we'd never cry alone, alone, alone
may He who knows our names, our past and future
speak and comfort us, in this night, this candlelight night.

4thofmay

its the fourth of may!
its not independence day,
maybe not till 21!
time to celebrate
wisdom, beauty more of each
all of twenty
i cant wait

surprises! even i'd be surprised
my dear, i love u!
and this is such a big event
i hope it'll be super special
just slightly less special than u are

4thofmay

its the fourth of may!
its not independence day,
maybe not till 21!
time to celebrate
wisdom, beauty more of each
all of twenty
i cant wait

surprises! even i'd be surprised
my dear, i love u!
and this is such a big event
i hope it'll be super special
just slightly less special than u are

by my side, light breathing
im comforted to know that your safe
darling i love you so
whispering by ur ear

your remarkable, incredible
for all you are, for all youve done
i love u, just as you are
fall asleep, rest well
i love u

i love listening to the music
your heart and breathing make
the nights come and go
silently i await

i wish i din have to go
time with u just passes too fast
its not fair that i spend so much elsewhere

dream

watching u fall asleep, i wonder what your dreaming
could i step in them, could i touch u now
i wdnt want to, lest u wake, and feel tired
what did u see, where did u go
in dreams, in dreams, in dreams

18

someone in the dreams i see
i feel and i want them to be real
have you ever felt that way before?
i saw someone i truly love
beautiful, and perfectly so
i wdnt change anything about her
and i hope she remains the same.

pretty brown eyes and just the right height
she loves to hold my hand
loves to listen, and holds ont
even though its so hard
such a dream does make me happy

and i wake up with sunshine on my face
hearing the phone ring
i pick up to hear the voice
of the girl in my dreams, the perfect voice
its not a dream!
it hasnt been for more than 18 months
all in my dreams, they're true!
all i see in her, and so so much more
they're true, as true as the voice that i love to wake up to.
and it makes me happier than any dream
her, she, liz, my sweetheart

one day i hope to wake up
with more than sunshine on me
with my sunshine girl next to me
i love her so so much.
and she loves me just as much to
i need her so, so much.

romancing you

hey i got this all in my head
promises i wanna make!
i'll do my best, to make you
feel the way you are
special, unique and beautiful

romancing you's something i wanna do
not now not today but forever
once isnt enough,
it brings me so much joy to see u smile
to know your happy

flowers, roses, surprises
aye i aint that creative but i'll try
cards paper, dinners, lunches!
teach me how to romance you!
and i cant wait to get to know you better
will a lifetime ever be enough?
thank You Lord! for such a wonderful
beautiful, pretty young lady
by my side, holding on
lemme romance her! i wanna learn from You too

for You love her and know her so much better!

ure tall enough

just needed to let u know
your so beautiful
unending legs such wonderful height
im so glad im with you
and so glad ure not with some other guy

oh what a figure, what a dress sense
stay by me, i aint much of a looker
but u make me look good.
i love u for who u are!
im glad, im happy satisfied with u!~

forgotten

dun ask me how many times uve hurt me
i cant remember ive forgotten
leaving it behind
relieved that your still by my side
i refuse to count the cost
the cost thrown in the refuse.

i aint doing budgeting
not when love's invovled.
i love u! and the hurts all gone
Jesus Christ came and healed
and they';re forgotten.
your forgiven! lets not remember for too long

but one things for sure,
somethings are worth remembering
your love, our perseverence
not, not ever, never
forgotten.

and i wdnt want to forget you
i dun want you to remain in my past
of memories, or just in photos taken yesterday
if i had three wishes
i'd wish you'd be part of my todays
i'd wish you'd be part of my tomorrows
and i'd wish...
hmmm maybe i'll save the last wish for emergencies

laugh for your beautiful
thats something worth celebrating!
being with the prettiest girl
not only on this island
i believe in the wholest widest world.

wet shoes

dancing in these shoes
running walking to get me to you
i aint afriad of the storm
or the hot sun or you stepping on them
just to be with you
i'd put these shoes on the line

i dun care if my feet get wet
hot dry itchy or sticky.
maybe my shoes will get worn out
ahh, my precious shoes
but not as valuable as u are
i'd get my feet wet for u.

the walk with you has been so beautiful
i'd be blind and a fool
to give u up for anyone or anything else
i love u, more and more
dun let the storms stop me!
if i could i'd kick them away!

forests or pavements
the wild weeds that might entagle
or the wide rivers that might drown
i'd go across them in my shoes
just to get to you
cuts and bruises arent going to stop me
i love you too much.

and in any case the forest beasts get to me
i hope ull pick me up
theres only so much a donky
in the jungle can do
apply some ointment (you know which one)
hold my hand
and i'll be strong enough
to press on with you

i love u!

when you say you love me

when you say you love me
its not only the words i hear
its off a sincere heart
honest and bare,
wanting what's best

when you say you love me
i know ull give your best
i am comforted,
i love u too.

when you say you love me
the days ahead get easier to swallow
the difficulties become easier to accept
im that much more confident
with your hand in mine

when you say you love me
the stars seem brighter, the sun more beautiful
simple thigns become so much
more worht pursuing
im changed and so are you
for the better, for two.

thoughts

here i was
or maybe i should say here i am
i want this to be in past tense.
the distance sometimes is too much
on the same island and under the same sky

regimentation, discipline
all that shouting and fussing
maybe it really is a mountain
of a lil hill

oh how i wish time might pass
that much faster
through to the second half
through the months

why wouldnt they slow down
whenever im with you?
i wonder why i have so many days here
and so lil with you

never enough, but im comforted
knowing how we've become stronger
im amazed, at the work He has started
yet to be completed.

deep

this want in my heart
desire, only one

i want you by my side
for as much as possible
all the lil moments
the important and seemingly
insignificant
they make the bigger picture
and i wanna share them all with you

be with me, only you
can make me feel this way
i love you ever so deeply
youre special

words fail me, pitures arent enough
to describe, to capture, to take down
your beauty, your touch, your presence
i need you, so hold on, so love, so true

i miss u
i just do.

pride

like a jewel on a crown
beautiful and complete
theres nothng about you
i'd change

im so proud of you
wanna show you off to the world
gona shout it out
not ever gonna hide it
my love for you

so amzed and satisfied
like a gem or a diamond
i wdnt let go
you make me proud
and i wanna show you off.

seaside

the waves gently touch
raw sandbed, ebbing out
welcoming, it sweeps
slowly the sun goes down
the waves rush on,
the sand inviting
not resisting powerfully
taking pulling closer
ebbing has become a faster motion
the hunger can be sensed
the waves move
up and down
a more frantic rhythm
of love of caressing
touching, fingers of the waves shifting the sand
speeding up, the sun's going down
coming up, coming out
the earth breathes
rushing in tiding out
and then it all stops
as if its come to rest
relieved, its satisfied.
the moon has risen
to her daily place
having missed the passion
of the waves

dance, our dance

lets dance my dear
hold my hand and take me through
this privilege to dance with you
guide me along, this beautiful dance
we move to the music, of God.

tango, or salsa, we're passionate
and our dance shows it
i like your dress,
im so in love with you
you'll always catch me staring at you
you're so beautiful

and so we dance, in our concentration
the noises of applause, or jeers
the floor's rough at times
we're closer, and better
but it took and takes
all the wrong steps.

we've righted them
guided by God's own hand
hold onto mine,
i dun want to let go of you
theres no other i'd dance with
on this side of eternity
than u.

and the more i think of it

and i keep thinking of it
about you ours and us
i wanna jump for joy dance and hop around
you make me so happy
glad and i know im sappy

this happy kind of poem's for you
coz i love it when youre happy
and when you smile tt pretty smile
or give me one of your kisses
im smitten, not like a kitten

delirious, delicious
my life never has been
and its so colorful, im learning
still loving and im glad
its you im loving

one of a kind
the only one, my heart would take
without you i'd break
hold my hand
play in the sand

this happy not so sappy
collection of words
for you, my love
my lizzy babe!

me.....

this so simple and true
love that can express itself
in this world
sometimes i cant see it
but sometimes i feel it

and i know your with me
im quietly praying for you
while your working
while im on the other side
thinking about you

and your smiles are so precious
your love, so uniquely special
a hug a kiss, blown to me
or finding my lips
blows me away

come comfort me, when im teary
i need you, selfishly so
when im on my knees
when im tired,
ure there...

there for me

no more such songs

songs of loneliness
i thought i might end up singing.
holding onto your hand
i know i shall not have to sing them

the songs ppl sing,
they envy and they feel
the pain, loss maybe

isnt it so good not to be that way?
i havent, nor will i ever,
regret each moment ive given to you
for that's a wonderful gift
the time youve sacrificed for me

the songs go on
but my heart sings with joy!
i never knew i'd have you
nor did i imagine being in love
would be this beautiful

dream like, divine,
never like how its sung
the songs, they're barely
the tip of the iceberg

so here, even tho i cannot sing
i sing with my heart
my strength, a soul song

no more songs of loneliness, sadness
wonder or imagination
i've got who i need, want
and desire

i love u.

my dear....

oh the worries you bear
the weight of a few worlds
your shoulders can only take so much
take them to the Lord

my dear i love you so
your the sweetest gal
im glad uve given so much
please take care of yourself

remember the Lord!
oh His wings and grace
i know He will sustain u and i
and us and evryone else
nothing that comes to us
hasnt first gone thru Him

persevere, ure beautiful
and u are blessed with many many gifts!
if only we knew exactly what
but the Lord will help reveal them to us

but here i write, thinking abt u
and how we need each others' forgiveness so
i love you! and thats not all i know!
for He loves you too!

my valentine

one day after, here i am
writing out the feelings i have
and glad to share
i know she, my special one
listens and cares
even though im difficult

she holds onto my hand
nurtures me
with a shower of love
what sincerity! what beauty!
and im only too glad to share in her

why must she be made
so far away from me
on the same island
but its always too far

she's my valentine,
special in my life
unique the only one
may i never set my eyes on any other

theres a hole in my heart
shaped just after her
i dont want to leave her
i just want to love
to cherish as much as i can
to learn, to live
with my pretty babe

love...

love, more than an occasion
than time can capture
nor give its full worth
to be with you
i dont want
forever or eternity
to ever be enough

this love in words
just a reflection of how much
i seek to be with u
never enough
what words and roses can do
this love ever so true

from God our Father
holding us together thus far
when i seek and i find
im contented to have found you
hold my hand, hold on tight
through the suns storms and moons
tears laughter and smile

love, not to be celebrated
on february the fourteenth alone
it'll do such great injustice!
to limit our love to a day
i love you and we celebrate
everyday, what God has given
through emotions, anger or happiness
through occassions, physical distance
hope, through prayer

on our Father's everlasting arms
wipe these tears away
these happy tears
touched by a love so strong
so divine, so blessed

love, true, changes, blesses
oh how blessed to give
to a soulmate, companion, best of friends
i love you
i'll be here, there, a prayer will do.
when u need me
and i need you just as much

babe im sorry

for all the times i didnt
pay attention or listen
those times that made
you cross with me

for the times i was late
for all our special dates
those days that kept
you waiting endlessly

babe i just wanna say
im sorry
these words from the bottom of my heart
i really am!

i know these words wont make do
wont undo all that has been done
please forgive me
i just cant let go of me

im so glad u still wanna love me
despite how i am
ridden with mistakes
wrong moves and poor choices
cant say the right thing
nor do i know wats going on

so for those days i made u mad
i just wanna say im sorry
it was my bad
babe dont leave me
i wanna say

im sorry

counting, memories

one two three
the days go by so quickly
everytime im with you
hold onto my hand
i wanna hold yours tight
and walk with u
in this life

the days into months
and the months into our years
memories upon smiles
laughter and tears
no regrets
giving this much to you

four five six
counting stars and hours
knowing that this time is ours
i love you
wanna make you feel loved
wanna love you
just you

the years into decades
oh how time goes so slow
sometimes it feels that
tomorrow is so far away

let me not wish our youth away
and we'll not let anything get in our way
i love you
and its more than feelings
more than a choice
so much more than words
yet these three words
says it all.

i love u!

mood

when im down or when im out
moody or missing you
i know yours is a hand
i can hold onto

i love u and im glad
u love me too.
i wil do my best
for the one i love
you are so worth it

im in love with u
you encourage
please always do

even if ure cross
irritated or angry
thank you for forgiving me
i love u
and im glad u love me too

in this kinda mood
i miss u so
wet grey and not very sunny
uve given me one more reason to lvie
to persevere and live
my best

i love u
and im glad u love me too.
just the right kinda mood
whenever im with u

His hands weave for us
such a wonderful story
i dunno how it will turn out
but i know He knows best
i love you for who you are
and i cant live without you

its more than the way you move
or the dishes u cook
ure touch or your sharing
or how u pester me so :)
its more than your smile
or ure kisses and ure hugs
i just love you!
for who u are
for all tt u are

can you look at the trees
the strong bark and height
what majesty in creation
bearing His fingerprints

the ocean roar or the ebbing waves
feel the sand beneath your feet
know that He carries
and be amazed at one so Mighty

the living creatures
from minute the enormous
the human body
so wonderfully complexed
works so well

and to know and believe that He
gave His Son.
the One who hung the stars where they are
and who is Holy beyond words

to save to heal and to forgive
a mission that is unlike any other
and who am i to question
i am in awe

i love u

theres so much about you i appreciate
the way you make me smile and laugh
even though my skies are grey
you choose to share them with me

you make sure i become a better person
you encourage give and love
theres no one else i'd rather be with
the sun still shines His face gloriuos

im so glad i have you on this journey called life
how you pick me up when im in pieces
or when i just cant go on
somehow you encourage and point towards God

its how ur hugs are
one of the greater comforts in the world
and how your kisses blow me away
im captivated
im overwhelmed and absoulutel;y in love with you


but most of all i just love you
for who you are
not who you were
or who anyone wants you to become
and i want to spend my life with you