elizabeth (one year later, and i still love you)

some people say i haven't let go
some people look and say such a poor soul
through this time i've grown way too old
one year has gone by, perhaps way too slow

your name still lingers on my lips
sometimes i awake with the taste of your kiss
i wish there were better scripts
that somehow this will end in bliss

some people say i havent accepted
some people say i'm foolish to have waited
i know this time wasn't wasted
because it was on Him that i waited

liz i wish it weren't so awkward
sometimes at night my heart still hurts
liz i realise its you i miss
i wish i could skip to the ending without going through this

have feelings messed up my psyche?
maybe somethings are so plain to see
but somehow in grief i've missed
all that trasnpired in the midst

is it love or delusion?
i fail to make a proper conclusion

EJ i wish i was where you are
these places bring back more than i can take
it doesnt matter how far
or how many times my heart will break
i still want to be with you
no matter what has been said

joanna

your name fills my mind
thoughts of you that overwhelm
i realise i'm missing you
that i want to be with you

joanna did i ever tell you
how i love getting lost in your eyes?
joanna i wish things were different
that i could hold your hand
and say i love you

tonight i'm thinking of your smile
your laugh, your hair and the way you move

do you still think of me?
what do you see?
one year on,
i'm where i was, perhaps with the same song

letters of pledged love
stored away so close to reach
the pieces that serve
to remind me of what once was

and i shake my fist towards the sky
feeling the rain pouring down
heaven is too far away from my sigh
my anger threatens to drown

here i ask why againe to silence
why the pain, why this mess
one year on and im still here
how much has changed?

i scream i shout but there is no response
this anger that burns, the resentment agaisnt the silence
i look up in defiance
rging against the One who gives me breathe.